Sweetest Prayer Ever

So Breanne has been willing to say prayers by herself a lot lately, and while I always love listening to her pray, tonight's prayer was especially touching.  It went something like this:

Heabenwy Fader,

Thank you day,

Thank you food,

Thank you Janey go doctor,

Thank you we get medicine for Janey,

In the name of Jesus Christ, amen.

I'm not a very emotional person (meaning I don't cry much, as long as I'm not pregnant), but this simple prayer brought tears to my eyes.  With no coaching or anything, Breanne remembered to be thankful that we could take Janey to the doctor and get medicine for her.  After a long day at the doctors and at home, it was so nice to remember that Breanne really does love her sister.

(And just to calm your worried minds, Janey just has a gunky cold in her sinus-y stuff, but it isn't in her lungs, so so far, so good.  She does, however, have a double ear infection, which is no fun, but at least treatable with antibiotics.  One more way in which she is just like her sister.  And as for the long day at home, let me just say this:  when you rub sidewalk chalk against the fireplace cover thing, it's basically like rubbing it against a grater.  Ugh.)

A Few Things About Breanne

She loves having her toenails and fingernails painted, and prefers when you let her pick out the color herself.

She loves her slide (and watching tv from the top of her slide...)

She really loved "driving" this bus at the mall... until some strange kid got on and actually put money in the thing to make it go... 

And she loves loves loves pretending.  About anything.  For example:

What you may see in these pictures is her blessing dress.  What she sees is Meg, and she is pretending to be Hercules.

Loving her "Meg,"

And showing you her Herculean muscles.

Down here, she is being an airplane.  Which is much more important than eating her lunch, obviously.

And these are some of my personal favorites-- A normal puppy dog, a happy puppy, and a sad puppy.  Don't ask me how the happy puppy actually looks like a puppy.  That's just her face any time you tell her to look like a happy puppy.  What a funny girl.

Breanne does not love taking naps anymore, and most days, flat out refuses.  Even though she obviously still needs them on occasion:

My Favorite phrases Breanne uses a lot right now:

Oooh, that a nice choice for you!

What you favorite...?

Come sit by me, Mommy!

What you doin', Mom?

I'n a watch a movie!

All nice, right?  Well, how about these?

Get lost!

Yeave me a-yone!

I can't!

Go 'way!

I think someone has seen entirely too much of Oscar the Grouch lately.  But I sure do love this girl, and her sweet ways.  She's getting so big! and so opinionated about everything, but I love watching her grow, and learn, and be herself.  Her pretend play just melts me sometimes.  I love the conversations her dolls have (most often they're repeats of conversations we've had lately... :)), and the way she portrays her couples.  I hope they're a reflection of what she sees from us... though I don't think we kiss nearly as often as her prince and princesses do... :)

By the way, I'm so sorry about the crappiness of some of these pictures--I don't know what has happened to my camera--all the settings look fine to me, but it's acting like it's way over-exposing the pics or something--we really need a new camera.  But I figured something was better than nothing.

That Wild Herschel...

So Breanne regularly pretends to call people from her pretend phones.  Tonight was no different.  She had the xBox audio adapter (which has a button on it), and was pretending to call all of her grandmas.  She'd hand us the phone, and say "it's gramma, she wan' talk you!" so we'd ask her "which grandma?" and she'd respond "my Wilde gramma" or "my Kilger gramma."  We took the opportunity to explain to her (again, we talk about this regularly) that her grandmas are our moms.  So then, when she was done calling her grandmas, she made one last phone call--to "my Wilde Herschel."  We'd try to correct her by saying it's just Herschel, the only one we know, but she wanted very much to specify that it was her Wilde Herschel that she wanted to call.  Too funny.

All About Me In ABC's

So I keep getting tagged on memes I've already done, or that are similar to ones I've already done... so I'm not doing them again. However, I really liked reading this one on my sis-in-law's blog, so I thought I'd do it. So here goes!

A
- Available: Rarely... someone almost always needs my attention these days. :)
- Age: 25
- Animal: Giraffe.
- Actor: Tom Hanks. I decided this the other day after having watched You've Got Mail, Catch Me If You Can, and Cast Away. He is amazing.
- Actress: Sandra Bullock. And then Meg Ryan.

B

- Birthday: Sept. 30th
- Best Friend: Cory.
- Best feeling in the world: Realizing that I am capable of growing things (and people).
- Blind or Deaf: Neither. I want to hear and see everything
- Best weather: I used to think fall, but now that I love gardening, late spring, when I put my garden in.
- Been on stage?: A lot--I did a lot of band, back in the day. I was also Hermia in A Midsummer Night's Dream, and Ophelia in Hamlet in elementary school... good times. :)
- Believe in yourself?: Yes! I've learned to do a lot myself this year, it seems like--and I love how capable I feel now.
- Believe in life on other planets: Yes.
- Believe in miracles: Yes. Two of them call me mom (or will when they can talk... :))
- Believe in Magic: No.
- Believe in Satan: Yes, I believe he definitely exists and tries to influence us daily.
- Believe in Santa: The spirit of Santa, yes. The being, not so much.

C
- Car: My car--1999 Chevrolet Cavalier... it's dying (and I'll probably drive it till it's dead.) Also--Cory's car, 2006 Hyundai Elantra--a stick, which I finally learned how to drive a couple months ago! Yay!
- Candy: Yes please.
- Color: Orange.
- Chocolate/Vanilla: Chocolate. Definitely chocolate.
- Cake or pie: Pie. I love peach pie, and pecan, and apple, and pumpkin, and... I love pie.
- Countries to visit: Italy and Germany are the top of the list, but I'd really just love to go anywhere... the farthest out of the country I've ever been is Tijuana. Lame-o.

D
- Day or Night: Day--especially middle of the afternoon, when one or the other (sometimes both!) of the girls are napping, so I can spend some individual time with each of them, and have some time for myself.
- Danced: When I was like 4... I was always too self-conscious to really let myself go and just dance.
- Dance in the rain?: Walk in the rain, yes. Dance, see above--not so much.

E
- Eyes: Blue with yellow flecks.
- Everyone has a: brain. Some just utilize it better than others. :)
- Ever failed a class?: Nope. That's how I got a bachelors in 6 semesters. And I plan to eventually get a phD without failing any of those classes, either.

F
- Full name: Jessica Wilde Kilger
- First thoughts waking up: Is it really time for Janey to be awake already?
- Food: I am really not very picky about foods, so I have lots of favorites--oreos, sweet and sour meatballs, various cheesecakes, mexican food (flautas in particular)... I could go on forever.

G
- Greatest Fear: Loss. Of family, of income, of myself, of my mind...
- Giver or taker: Both... I love to give gifts, but I also definitely love to receive them.
- Gum: Eclipse, and Altoids cinnamon gum.
- Get along with your parents?: Mostly
- Good luck charm: I always said a prayer before performances and tests, and I think that helped me--does that count?

H
- Hair Color: Brown, with a tiny bit of blond and red. And a few grays... already. :(
- Height: 5 feet 2 and 3/4 inches.
- Happy: Yes I am
- Holiday: I actually really enjoyed New Year's this year, because it was so low key and we just got to hang out together as a family.
- Hate: Spiders in my house, and financial worries.

I
- Ice Cream: Burnt Almond Fudge. Also, I like Klondike Bars.
- Instrument: Piano, flute, sax, multiple percussion instruments, guitar.

J
- Jewelry: Just my wedding ring, and an occasional pair of cheap earrings.

K
- Kids: 2 beautiful girls. I'm so lucky.
- Kickboxing or karate: Kickboxing! I love it!
- Keep a journal?: No, but I blog. :)

L
- Longest Car Ride: Probably UT to California when I was younger... though the trip up to Moscow, Idaho during college was a long one, too.
- Letter: Seriously? Do people have a favorite letter? I don't. I wish I was better about writing letters to other people, though.
- Laughed so hard you cried: Yes, many times, but all since I've been married, I think.
- Love at first sight: Yes, but only with your children. Love in a relationship sense takes time to grow and develop, I think.

LAST PERSON WHO...
1. Slept in a bed beside you?: Cory, though not for long enough. That guy is just too busy.
2. Saw you cry?: Cory.
3. Went to the movies with you?: Cory, though I can't even think of what we saw last.
4. You went to the mall with?: Breanne and Janey. Shopping with two kids is hard.
5. You went to dinner with?: Cory, Breanne and Janey. Mmm, Cafe Rio.
6. You talked to on the phone?: Cory.
7. Made you laugh?: Breanne.

M
- Milk flavor?: Chocolate.
- Mooned anyone?: No. Ew. Some boys mooned us at my 18th birthday party though-- I thought we had grown up a little more than that, but apparently not.
- Marriage?: 4 1/2 years ago, and still going strong.
- Motion sickness?: If I read while we're driving on a winding road. If we're going straight, I'm ok.
- McD's or BK?: McDonalds. I love their Big'n'Tasty, though it's only available occasionally. I also like some of BK's breakfast things.

N
- Number of Siblings: 3 brothers, 3 brothers-in-law, and 6 sisters-in-law.
- Number of Piercings: Just one hole in each ear.

O
- Overused Phrases: I say "for crying out loud!" a lot, and "oh, goodness" when the kids do something that hurts them, which is also regularly.
- One wish: To be able to have and raise more children.

P
- Place you'd like to live: I'm just excited to have some new adventures with my hubby and kids--the place is optional. I do love living close to our families, though.
- Perfect Pizza: I really really really love Papa Murphey's Philly Cheesesteak pizza.
- Pepsi/Coke: Orange Soda.

Q
-Quail: My parent's have some living around their house (or at least did when I was living there).

R
- Reason to cry: exhaustion.

S
- Song: Name, by the GooGoo Dolls. Not because it applies to anything in particular, just because I think it's beautiful.
- Shoe size: 5-6. Which also means I can wear children's size 3-4. Bonus!
- Salad Dressing: Ranch, but I also love poppy seed.
- Sushi: No thanks.
- Scent: Johnson's Baby Shampoo and Lotion on my clean kids.
-Skipped school: Only in college.
- Slept outside: Only camping, but it's been a long time.
- Seen a dead body?: Yes, I've been to several viewings and funerals.
- Smoked?: No way. I just honestly do not understand the appeal of smoking.
- Skinny dipped?: No, I'm kind of a private person.
- Shower Daily?: Mostly... sometimes having 2 kids doesn't afford me that luxury. :(
- Sing well?: I'm too afraid to let other people hear me much, but Cory says I sing well...
- In the shower?: Mostly I just hum to myself. I do love those shower radios, though.
- Swear?: Never.
- Stuffed Animals?: Yes, but not as many as Cory.
- Strawberries/Blueberries: Strawberries, unless we're talking my muffins with the streusel topping.
- Scientists need to invent: cars that drive themselves.

T
- Time for bed: Usually between 12-1.
- Thunderstorms: I like them, as long as they aren't too close to my house, and they don't involve too much wind/downpour.
- TV: Oh goodness, we watch too much tv (but only after the girls go to bed for the adult stuff, of course). Our favorites include Chuck, The Office, Bones, Heroes, Lost, Smallville, Supernatural, American Idol, So You Think You Can Dance...the list goes on and on.
- Touch your tongue to your nose? Nope. I've been told I have a long tongue, though.

U
- Unpredictable: Not really, I don't think. I like to be comfortable.

V
- Vegetable you love: Most. A better question would be the ones I don't love, which are radishes, and cauliflower, though even those I'll eat occasionally.
- Vacation spot: Anywhere new and reasonably priced and clean. I greally enjoyed our simple trip last summer down to St. George and Cedar City, even though it isn't exotic or anything. Also, I loved our trip to Yellowstone, and the one to Virginia. I just love a good trip.

W
- Weakness: Oreos. I love oreos, even though they're terrible for you.
- When you grow up: I think I might actually be grown up. I have a husband, kids, and grown-up debt (house and car). How did this happen?
- Which one of your friends acts the most like you: Merisa and I used to constantly say the same things at the same time, and finish each other's sentences, but since I got married, I've yet to find a friend so much the same, I think.
- Who makes you laugh the most: Breanne and Cory.
- Worst feeling: Disappointment. And watching your child get hurt.
- Wanted to be a model?: No, like I said, I like being comfortable, and a little bit resereved.
- Where do we go when we die: Spirit World.
- Worst weather: Unbearable heat ties with freezing cold grossness in my book. You know, the kind of hot where you can't even put your kids in their carseats because you don't want them to get burned, and the kind of cold where it hasn't snowed in a while so the grossness in the air is all trapped in the vallies where we live and breathe? Ugh.

X
-X-Rays: Yep, I broke my nose (and the dr tried to x-ray my arm by mistake... sheesh!), and my arm. Also dentals.

Y
-Year it is now: 2009. Wow.
-Yellow: I love yellow. It's such a happy color. I want to paint my bathroom yellow. And maybe my bedroom, I'm not sure.

Z
- Zoo animal: Giraffe, again, and elephants. And the monkeys/apes/etc. I just love the zoo, actually.
- Zodiac sign: Virgo

And I tag you to do it. Yes, that's right, you. Ready, set, go!

Happy (Belated) Holidays!

So I don't know about you, but we had some great holidays this year.  We tried really hard to keep things small, and it made things so much nicer--so much less stress!  And, sadly, I don't have a single picture of the girls opening presents--some great video, but I don't know how to upload that yet (and I can't do it on my slow old compy, anyways, so you'll just have to wait).  Suffice it to say, Breanne was very excited about her new slide (we found it at a yard sale a couple weeks before Christmas... bonus!), and insisted on sliding down it many times before finally getting around to opening her stocking and her presents.  And she almost didn't want to open anything after finding the Pony and Batman bandaids at the top of her stocking, too.  What a funny girl.  Janey didn't open much, but she did like all the soft stuffed animals she received, and her little doll (she immediately took to sucking on her face... silly girl).  

We were able to focus more on our little family this year, which really helped me remember the important things we really celebrate at this time of year.  In years past, there's been so much hustle nad bustle that I was just exhausted all day--this year, we spent Christmas Eve up at my parent's and grandparent's homes, and then visited Cory's family on Christmas day, and had my parents and brothers down for dinner at our house.  I had just tossed together a quick crockpot meal, which worked out wonderfully.  I just can't say enough how much I loved doing less on Christmas day--we'll hopefully be alternating Christmas Eve and Christmas day with our two families from here on out.  Big fan of that.

Moving on--Happy New Year!  2008 really flew by for me--I still can't believe Janey is almost 10 months (it still seems like she just got here!) and Breanne is almost 3--how did I get to be old enough to have a 3-year-old?  Both girls are amazing me every day with their new things--Janey in the large-motor-skills-development area, and Breanne with her words and sentences and witty remarks... I'll go into more detail another time.  The point of this paragraph is to get out my resolution for this year--I want to be just a little bit better.  A better wife, mother, daughter, sister, friend, and secretary.  I'd like to be just a little kinder, a little more forgiving, a little more genuinely happy, and a little more on top of things.  I'd like to actually do my best, so that is what I am going to strive for this year.